i'm back :p

i'm back to blogger. missed me? surely no, hahah =.=
i'll post many things later, so watch out XP

bye for now, will be back ^^
ja ne~

DON'T F*CK WITH ME

ahahahaa keep talking bullshits people!!
yeaaaa bla bla bla and i won't listen to you!!!

DON'T FUCK WITH ME !!!!!!!!

again ......

never thought that she will be back ...
this soon at least ....
how scary ...
i can't let myself to be weak anymore. everytime i'm starting to get weak, she's trying to get out and controlled me.
this time, i'm almost get into her trick. i'm almost did , replaying what happened in the past .
this is bad.
i'm scared.
so scared.
she's the dark side of me.
she's me.
but she has more power and control than i do.
i'm weak, and she's strong.
i'm good, and she's bad.
what should i do?
i can't let myself to get controlled by her. i can't let it happened. again...
i don't want to ... come back to that dark past .
too scary to look back .

I'M SCREAMING INSIDE !!!!!

orang tua gue bawel abis !!!
uda bagus gue naek kelas !!! masih marah2in gaje sgala !!
banding2in gue ma diri sndiri n tmen2 pula !!! malu malu malu !! sory, gue gga malu !!! yg pnting gue lulus !!!

n skrg appa?
pindahin gue k skolah yg BERMUTU ??? masukkin k TMPAT LES ???? cabut INTERNET ???
PISAHIN GUE DARI DEADHYUENITH ?????

TERSERAH !!!!!
BAWEL BANGET SI LO SMUA !!!!!!!

dlu bilang nya gga mau gue nyelin 3 taun d SMP !!
skrg mlh bilang mo mindahin !!!!

tiap hari nyuruh gue maksa2 !!!!
maksud LO appa ni ??!!

SUMPAH GUE PNGEN KLUAR DR RUMAH NI !!!!!!

dasaarr PLAYBOY ASU !!!

anjeeeeenggg !! tu cowo NYEBELIN SANGAATT !!!!!
berani2.a bkn sahabat gue berantem nangis n patah hati !!! taeeeeee !!
mna gga ngerasa uda brkali2 bkn DEADHYUENITH hampir ANCUR !!!!!
ANJINXXXX !!!!!
lo pkir mnta mav ajja ckp ?? NGAREP LO !!!
lo mesti NUNDUK MINTA MAAF k smua DEADHYUENITH n cewe2 lo !!!!!!!!!!

gue gga ngerti knp CHA ma DY bs suka ma cowo ANJING kea DIA !!!!
appa bguz.a jg cowo PLAYBOY macam dia ????

ASU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just wanna .... SCREAM !!!!

man, f*ck with this life !!
this world just a boredom full of lies, tears and suffers for me! jeez, suck off!!
aarrghh !!
i dunno what's wrong with me, always in bad mood mode these days. sigh...
but i'm not on my period. so...?? what exactly happening to me?! AAAAARGH!!!

my family are sooo NOISY , keep telling me this-that and bla bla bla ....
my friends are sooo STUPID , get in a fight just because of STUPID BOYS!! its not like he's the only boy in the world isn't it?!
my sister are sooo ANNOYING , who is she think she is?! with her queena attitude!! jeez! you even borrowed money from ME!!
my net friends are sooo SILLY , always ask me what happened or always disturbed me even when i show the busy stats!! STUPID!!!
he is the STUPIDEST BOY EVER !! make me waited this long! aargh!! i am always wait for you, but not like this!! i'm tired of waiting too!! you even not there when i need you!! DAMN!!

and the worst...
I'M SO STUPID THAT I CRIED SO MUCH FOR WEEKS JUST FOR SOMETHING THAT'S NOT MY BUSSINES!!!!!

now, I JUST WANNA SCREAM OUT LOUD !!!!!!!!!!!!!

too many tears i dropped...now...can i able to smile?

uda lama ngga ngisi blog ,, byk yg trjadi ..
mungkin agak lebay, dilebih2in dan pko.a gitu lah, tp bner kq...
pelan2 ya crita.a .....

abz putus dr AYA, skrg mulai dket lg sm EZR. hmpir tiap hari telpon2an. tp skrg lg marahan sih (sepihak, cm gue doank. palingan jg dy gga pduli). huft...
pas UAS, brjuang sebisa mungkin, tp hasil.a antara ngga jelek dan ngga bagus alias...rata-rata lah... hampir dtiap mata pelajaran dpt peringkat 20-an diantara 40 siswa. itu jelek ppa bagus? haha.

skrg lg ngga mikirin pelajaran, cinta ataupun mslh keluarga. krna di pikiran cm ada VI, DEV dan RA sendiri....
dari cerita VI, DEV jg pacaran sm BRG, tman mrka d LUNATIC. emg itu nma.a selingkuh, atau ngeduain. tp DEV ngga tulus sm BRG, krna jadian sm BRG itu terpaksa. DEV cm cnta sm VI dan hanya VI. pas smua.a uda mulai membaik lg, VI dtmbak sm cowo d FS nma.a MRC. wkt tu, VI lgsg diskusi k DEV,, DEV mlh blg spaya terima MRC aja. VI jelas2 bingung dan nolak. tp DEV mlh mrh dan ngancem VI, klo VI ngga terima MRC, DEV bkal ikt BRG k singapura. akhirnya VI terima MRC, tp ngga serius.
pas diceritain VI, jlas2 ra marah, kecewa, sedih, down. rsa.a jth dr jurang. knp? knp nii-sama mlh ngebolehin? trz knp VI jg mlh lbih akrab ma MRC skrg? gga cm MRC, VI mkn dket ma org2 yg ngga ra knal. rsa.a smakin jauh dan jauh.......
gara2 UAS, ra gbs OL smentara. pas balik, entah apa yg trjadi, kea.a hubungan mrka (VI-DEV) mndingin. VI jd kliatan sriuz ma MRC. apa-apaan?! pas ra tnya, mrka membantah. DEV blg masih cnta sm VI, dan VI blg jg ngga sriuz ma MRC. tp knp...?
bbrp hr kmudian, VI kasih kabar buruk k ra. kta.a,, "klo mau tau, liat comment2 vi ma dev ya!". tp knp dy ceria bgt? kabar buruk knp mlh ceria? apa mksd.a??
akhirnya ra cari....dan......isinya....DEV...ditolak VI.
apa artinya? mksd.a? apa-apaan?! mrka putus?!!? knp?! dlm skejap, sgalanya ilang dr kepala. yg ada cm perasaan kacau, sedih, kaget, marah.......
mlm itu, air mata ra tumpah. uda ngga bs ditahan lg...smua.a uda kluar...
knp smua jd begini?
akhirnya smua berakhir, tnpa ra bs mlakukan apa2. sbner.a, ra itu apa d pikiran mrka? apa bner ra itu shbt mrka? krna ra anggap mrka sangat sangat penting dan berharga...tp...apa mrka ngga anggap ra spt itu?
klo bs putar blk wktu, ra ingin kmbali k masa2 wkt qta bertiga masih chat smbil ktawa2 bareng,, curhat2an,, hal2 yg menyenangkan....
apa itu harapan yg ngga bisa terwujud lg?

finally I lose you......
if I can turn back time, I want to go back to times when the three of us still together.
I miss you...so much....
with these tears, I pray...wishing for you two, come back to me....

i'm single and very happy! XD

JOMBLO !!
gue balik k status JOMBLO !!!!
hwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ~~~
snangnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!! XDDDDDDD
*aneh bgd gw...*
org mah sedih klo ptuz, nah gw?! wkakakakakakak ..
yg slh bkn dy kq, gw.a ajjh yg egois. dy baik, n gw emg sk ma dy, tp gw ngga bs cnta ma dy...
rsa.a brslh bgd, pcaran ma dy tp hati gw cnta.a ma rang lain!!
iaud, gw ptuzin ddh ... =w=
maap iia, AYA...
masii byk cewe2 lainn yg ngefans tuuhh ma lo! n diantara mrka pztii dda yg cocok wat lo! ^^

ehem, ehem...
td gw uda blg kn... "cnta ma rang lain"?
hwehehehehehe!
mau tw tak ~~~ ??
dy rang yg uda nyakitin gw mpe dalem bgd, yg bkn gw hampir hancur. tiap hr nangis, jd moody n jd sringg brntem (kta2.a jg kotor bgd)...
tp gw ttp cnta ma dy.
*gw.a yg bego yak??*
yah........
tp dy blg gga mau blikan ma gw, mski gw sk ma dy. coz dy tkut nykitin gw lagi...
*aawww, co cweeettt!! XD*
hampir tiap mlem gw nelp dy, coz hpe.a ilang (blackberry!! blacberry.a ilang!!!! mnding bwt gw dah!! XD)...
mski agak gmnaaaa gtuu, krna mrasa gw ni "mengganggu", tp dy blg sneng klo gw tvon.
klo pagi/siang.a gw bete, pas mlem tvon2n ma dy, pzti jd ceria lg! wkakakakakakakak ..
tapii, suamikuuu DY bner2 nentang gw balikan ma dy.... kta.a jgn smpe gw nangis lg gra2 dy!
*I LOVE YOU, DY!! XDDDDDDD*
tp tmend2 gw yg lain jg dda yg dkung kq.
ah tw ah, toh, blm pzti gw bkal balikan ma ntu nak ... =w=
skiaannn dluuu ~
ja ne ~

FACEBOOK, INTERNET N LAPTOP GW KEA TA* !!!!!!!!!!!

TA* !!! ANJ*** !!! MON*** !!!! BAB* !!!!
F*CK !!!! SH*T !!!!! ASS**** !!!!!!!

FACEBOOK, INTERNET N LAPTOP GW KEA TA* SUPER BAU PUNYA JABL** GRATISAN DI TAMAN LAWANG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UDA NGETIK PANJANG2 N CAPE2, TBA2 KEAPUS TNPA KE SAVE SATU KATA PUN !!!!
ANJ*** DASAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nyaaaa ~~~

nah, skrg mari kita berdiary-diary ria ~~ XD

LOVE LIFE :
liburan inii .. knp dy ngga kontek2 gw sm skali ???!!!!
SHOCK !!!!
knp iniii ???
hiks..hiks...
si 'itu' jg gga bs dhbgn !! tiap d.sms failed mulu !!!!
apa dy gnti nomor tnpa blng2 iia ?? TT___TT
sedih, sedih ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

STUDY SCHEDULE :
liburan pnjang ... tugas numpuk !!!!
akh, sebeeeeeel !!!!
mna dda tugas mtk yg supeeeerrr susaah !!! ><
tyuz, tyuz, dda jg tugas b.ing !!
huhuhuhuhu ~~~~
guru2 pd tega daaahh !! gga prnah jd nak muda ppa!?
*caelah, omongan.a! XD*

FRIEND LIST :
VI-chan n DEV-nii-sama ngga bs dihubungin !!
LAGI !!!!! TToTT
tp, akhir2 nie ra jg sneng krna uda msk ALC. hwehehehehe ~~
skrg jg lg proses pndaftaran ARC. ^^
dpt kaka bru lg ~~
FYU-nii-chan! XDD
yah...pkok.a bgtulah! hehehehehehe ..

FAMILY COMPLEX (jdul manga nie! XD) :
nyaaa ~~
ngga brubah kq. cm mama lg sering prgi2 ajjh. kta.a lg cari2 uang tmbahan.
gpp lah, skrg. toh, saia jg diajak kq! XDDD
kmrn smpet k bogor. tar mo k puncak!
nyaaaaaa ~~~ ^w^

ALICE IOF

gomen ne, minna-san ~~~~~
((sorry, guys ~~~~~))
uda lamaaa, dhara ngga nulis2 lg d blog !!
kangeeenn gga ??
*dtimpuk guci*

ehem, ehem ..
btw, kali iniii, dhra yg luthu n imut-imut ini.. *dgtok*
..mo ngomongin ttg community yg ra bru msk !!
nmanyaaa ~~~
ALICE IOF .
(

tmpat yg menyenangkaaann ~~~
disitu smua.a otaku2 gokil !! XDD
mrka jg baik2, n nerima ra dgn baik.
*halah..lebay euy!*

tp..
ra msi bru. jd hrus.a gga neko2.
scara ngga sdar, ra mlh bkn slh stu anggota alc yg ra sk (bkn dlm artian "itu"!! *plak!*) mrh sm ra ..... TT___TT
*hiks..hiks...jd sinetron dah!*

gomen ne ~~~
pliiiisss forgive me ???????

h o a ?

D = Dhara
C = Cynthia (bkn Cintya)


D : Gue cinta ma dia. meski dia uda ngekhianatin gue, uda nyakitin gue, tp gue ttp cnta.
Slama ni gue nungguin dia, sampai skrg gue uda capek nunggu. tp knp bru skrg?

Mski gue bilang cnta, masih ada rasa tkut dlm lubuk hati gue...

Apa dia pntes nerima cinta gue?
Apa gue bisa percaya lg ma dia?

Gue bimbang! Bingung!!!

C : Akh, gilaa.. omongan gue persis kea rang strez!
Pdhal blm tntu dia bneran mo balik ma gue.
Seandainya dia mau jg gmn ma yg satu lg? masa gue 2in?! GGA MUNGKIN BGD KN??????
H u u f f t .
Uda lah ra, gga usah mikirin cowo dulu!! cowo bkn pusing hdp qta ajjh!! msi byk hal2 nyenengin laen slain cowo !!!
'TUL ????

D : Tapi ,, klo uda sadar gini, gmn gue ngadepin yg lain?
Trnyata emng susah nglpain rang yg prnah dcintai ia . . .

C : Ckckckckckck . santai ajjh kaleeee ~
Take a breath, step forward, and smile always!
Seiring wkt jg lp !!

D : Hmmph, gtu iia? gue bingung ah!!

C : H a l a h , ra sok lku ajjh ! ! pdhal lum tntu 2-2.a btulan syngg ma ra kn ?? ck!

D : A h ,, iia jga ia ?

C : Thuu khaaannn ~
Tyuz ra mo.a gmn ??

D : Mmhh . . . gga tw !?

C : Hoalah , EDAN ! ! XP

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l o v e ?

am I in love with you?
because everything seems too far away from my dream . . .

are you in love with me?
because your eyes always captured me . . .

hei, I don't think we love each other...
you love me, but I don't know about my feelings.

will you forgive me?

even so, I don't want everything is over.
I'm already step forward with you, and I don't want to continue on my own.


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visit this link , please !!!

http://www.fanfiction.net/~yukimaria24

hm, hm, hm, hm ~

LOVE LIFE :
akhir2 iniii.. hubungan kamii gga jalan! pdhal bruu jdian.
soal.a qta bdua msi malu2. sms.n gga bs, krna dy gga dda plsa mulu .. !!
btapa kere.a dikauu, pcarkuu ~ ToT

huuffftt ,,
tp gpp siihh, ntar jg trbiasa !

btw ,,
dnger2, si EZR mo mnta balik. kta tmend2 SD cii .. tp w gga tw, n gga prcaya gtuu ! ><
abiss , dy khann tukang boong !! w tkut d.skitin lgi..
lgian khann skrg w uda ma AYA. *big grin*

hwehehehehehehehehehe ~

STUDY SCHEDULE :
oiia, bruu inget !! td dda ulangan mtk !!!!
huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
masa dari 20 soal, cm 8 yg w bisa !!???
hiks...hiks...hiikkksss.... T___T

huhuhuhuhu ~

FRIENDS LIST :
kmarinn, abis ra sms DEV-nii-sama kaya gini :
"Nii-sama, I miss VI-chan soooo much..!!" ,,
keesokan hri.a dy lgsg k hoz VI n minjemin hp.a spaya VI bs sms.n ma ra !!
soal.a hpe.a VI lg disita ma bkp.a, jd gga bs sms.n deh...
waaa ~
snangnyaaaaaaaa !! XD
DEV-nii-sama baiikk skaliii !! ra snaaangg !!
h e h e h e
tyuuzz,, hbgn ra sm ANGE-chan n RTH jg smkn "dalam"...
mksd.a pertemanan.a gthuuu ~
hehehehe ..

LIFE IS NOT EASY, BUT I TRY TO ENJOY IT...

pengumumaaann .. !! XD

tepat hari rabu, tgl 8 april lalu, dhara resmii pndah status drii jomblo imuutt (hha) k pcar orangg !! hwahahahahahaha .. aneeh bgdd w !!
yuppzz,, skrg dhra dh pnya cowo ! n dy gbetan w slama neeii !!
c AYA !!!
proses jdian.a aneh cii, tp w ttp sneng !!!
mski yg brsngkutan jga susah bgdd dhbgn !! ><
tp gpp lah ..
yg pntg w tw dy jga sk ma w !!
moga2 qta bdua langgeng , gga kea dlu ma c brengsek !!!
amiieenn ~ n_n

nyahoooo ~ !! =^w^=

udah bulan april niii !! klo d jpang, wktu'a hanamiiii !! XDD tpii, mulai bln april nii, w jd smkn sbuukk ! coz pak jamal ambil banyaaaaaakkk tugaass wat ekskul kesenian !! bln april dda tarian, bln mei dda acara2 kgiatan skola, bln juni plepasan kaka2 klz 9 ! n qta jd panita'a !! wadooohhh ~ tp ndak pha2 .. toohh, sesibuk apapun dhara, pstii ttp nulis d blog !! mski jarang2 (mungkin) !! hohohohohohohohohoho ~

btw ,, skrg dhara lg ngefans beraaaaaatttt ma seorang cowo yg luaaaaarrr biasaaaa gnteng, keren, imut, berbakat pulaaaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!
eits, bkn tokoh anime/manga lhooooo ~ mau tw siapaaaa ???
ini diiiaaaaaaaa ... !!! XDD

KEVIN APRILIO

hope you will get well soon...

hari ini gga masuk krna darah rendah ..
tp pas bngun tdur, dpt kjutan tk menyenangkan !!!!
DEV-nii-chan sms w lg. sneng sih. mski dy ngucapin happy bday'y tlat, ttp jja sneng. w kira dy dh lpa ma w.. tp trnyta, dy jga bw brta buruk..

VI-chan di opname d rs. krna dbd n tyfus.. ktany sking khawatirny, DEV lgsg balik k indo, n skrg msi d indo. VI di opname d rs pondok indah. pngen jenguk, tp ktany bsk VI dh blh plng..
w ngsih tau k tmend-tmend trdekat w n VI d fs. mrka kaget banget. n super khawatir.
w jga khawatir sih.. gara-gara dnger berita tu, kpala w lgsg skiid gtu.. mgkn krna shock.

Vi-chan,, we all miss u..
hope you will get better soon...

bencana SITU GINTUNG ...

Turut berduka cita atas tragedi "Situ Gintung" yg menewaskan banyak orang. kita hanya bisa berdoa agar orang-orang yg ditinggalkan slalu tabah dan sabar...

poin-poin kbaikan d hari sial...

poin-poin yg akhirny bs bkn w relaks :
1. kepsek pas amanat upacara, ngomong'y kocak.. sneng w.. ^^

2. qta ngerencanain baksos sndirian wat bncana situ gintung. deadhyuenith dbntuin VNI . (tp kea'y dy cm ngincer tenar'y). satu orng 10rb. w sneng d'nith pnya rncana baik gtu.. ^^

3. pas d jln k hoz KI, YUE ngomong'y lucu mulu. YUE, KI ma ZEN ttp bcanda, mski w diem jja (alias cemberut), n gga da DY, EA, n NID. d'nith emng slalu rame mski anggotany krng lengkap!! ^^

4. d hoz KI, bknny bntuin bkn kue wat baksos, w mlh santai baca komik'y KI. fufufufufufufu ..

5. tiduuurrr nyenyak abiisss plng dr hoz KI .. ^^

6. bka internet, chatting sm ANGE-chan n KAY. duuhh, kangeeeenn bgdd ma ANGE-chan. KAY jga dngerin curhat w dgn sabar. makasih ia tmend-tmendku trcynk .. ^^

7. baca Vampire Knight side story!! Haruka x Juri, lhoooo ~ !! ^^

8. gga tw lagi ah.. hehehehehehe ..

hari paliiiiiiinggg ngebeteeiiiiinnn !!!!!!!!!!!

hari niiii, w beteeeeeeeeeeeeeee bangeeeeeeetttttttttt !!!!! ><
poin-poin kebetean :
1. jadi dirijen tnpa tw apa-apa. akhirny tmpil malu-maluin !!!

2. ZEN nyinggung-nyinggung w terus.. mski niat'y bcanda, mank w gga skiid hti, pa !?

3. pas biologi, hmpir tidur btulan, pas ips, ktinggalan ngeringkas skitar 10-20 halaman, pas tik...

4. pas tik, bljar d perpus, gara-gara AYA dtng telat, dy jd duduk d blkg w. "MAKASIH" wat
d'nith yg dorong-dorong w, akhirny dy jd kesel.

5. tmen : "dhar, lo ska kn ma AYA?"
gue : "iya..."
*sikap 'ogah dikatain muna'*
satu kelas : "CIIIIIEEEEEEEE ~"
AYA : "....huh..."
gue : "~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~"

6. msti k hoz KI dlu. bkn kue wat baksos kjadian situ gintung... mulai relaks dsna...

7. plng BARENG VNI ... !!! najoooong, thu ank boong mulu. jijik w... pke sok-sok caper gtu ma bkp w!! "gpp om, turun sini ajj. soalny mau beli bahan-bahan wat bkn gelang lg..." apa seeeehhh ~ !!??

8. iikkhh... gara-gara kcapean, lgsg tdur. pas bngun, kponakan w ribut mnta main game d laptop!!!!! w mo bka fb bntaran, lgsg ngambek, mau ngadu k bkp !!! bete gga !!???

9. peer mtk w lum slesai ... !!!!!!! pdhal bsk dkumpulin .. ah, bodo. nyontek bae dah ... =.=

10. w yakin hari sial w msi truz brlanjut ... *sigh*

gyaaaaaaaahhhhh !!!!!!!!!

knp?! knp?! knpaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!???
fanfic w gga diterima !!!
diancem bkal dilaporin sbg penyalahgunaan !!!!
jd spam !!!!!
kurang ajjaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrr !!!!!!!!
cma gara2 bntuk fanfic w tu dialog !!!!!!! hiks...hiks...

skrg ,,
w gga bs buka fb !!!!!!!!!! bk ia bka, tp gga bs diapa2in sma skali !!!!!!!!! ><
hueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeenggggggggggggg !!!!!!!!!!! TT__TT

ah ,, pokok'e ra uda mulai bete ma dunia net. mana tmend2 w pda cuek bebek pas ultah w kmren (tmend2 net) ... TT__TT
huh! skrg ra mau'y baca kmk online ma ngisi blog jja deh! bodo ma facebook, friendster, fanfic !!!!!!!!!!! XP

my birthday !!

hari niii, dhara ulang tahuunn ..
dgn hr nie, dhara "resmi" jd cewe 13 thn ! hohohohoho (hoe?) ..
td pagiii, smua nyuekin w! gga da yg ngucapin selamat ultah (deadhyuenith mksudny)..!
tp truz, abz olah raga, SATU KELAS tw" nyanyiin lagu "happy birthday" wat w!
duuuhhh, terharuuu bgdd ! >u<

dpt kalung lucuuu dr mama! snangnyaaaa ~ ^^
truz, truz ...
si AYA ngucapin slmt ultah jga wat w! tp lwt sms sih.. soalny dy blng malu klo langsung ngomong. duhhh... jgn ngsi w harapan kea gtuuu dunkk !! >//////<

yah...
bgtulah hr nie ..
td jga ttp lthn tari saman. gilaaaaa, kaki w merah bgdd !!
huhuhuhuhu ~
tp hr nie ttp nyenengin! hehehehehe..

tp...
yg bkn sedih...
KNP ULTAH W MESTI BARENGAN SM COWO BRENGSEK TU ???

EZAR GIOVANY ADHILA ????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my love !!!! XD

MY ONLY LOVE ...
THE ONLY ONE IN MY HEART ...
... IS ...
KANAME-SAMAAA !!!!!!!!! XD






ahh...
the most dark, mysterious, gorgeous, beautiful, yet sinful man...
i love you, kaname-samaaaa !!!!! XD
i'm soooo jealous of you, yuki-saann !! TT__TT

my onii-chan...

dev-nii-chan sms ra..
ra sneeeeeng bgddddd !! XD
tapiii ... trnyata nii-chan jga sms YUE.
hmm ...
agk sedih sih... ok, mungkin gue EMANG sedih ...
tp gpp dhe!
abisss, dev-nii-chan yg sms YUE duluan ! ><
nii-chan, imouto mu kangeenn !! sms lgii dunkk !!
cpet plng dr jerman yaaaa ~
ditunggu suvenirnyaa !! hehehehehehe..

met ultah utk sis hunny-ku yg trsyng ... :)

happy bday ia, ka hanie ...
wish u all d'best sis ... :)
kaka mau kado ap dr ade?
mav td gga bawa kado. ntar nyusul (n patungan! hhe) iiaaa ~ ^^

eh? eh? eehhhh ????

btw ,,
dhara nemu blog (kayany sih blog?) fans Yuki Kajiura lhoooo ~
snangnyaaaaa !! ^o^
uda download "Sacrifice" jgaa ~
tp msi hunting "Hear Our Prayer" n lagu" laennya ...
gpp lhaaa ~
nti jga ktmuu ... !!

oia ,,
akhir" ni mood dhara aneh bgdd dhe . . .
satu dtik sneng bgdd, satu dtik kmudian lgsg marah".. ??
duh, knapaa iiaa??
what happened to me ???????
hmm ~

worried ,,, !!

bru bangun...
tp uda ngrasa gga enk..
YUE mnta fsny vi-chan .
kmrn jga CHA n DY mnta numny vi-chan ...
duh !!
pa hruzny w diem" jja ia ??
w gga rela bgdd !!!!
tba" dunia net sm dunia nyata kecampur khan gga enk bgdd !!!!
please, somebody !!
help meeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my beloved...

akhirnyaaaa ... !!
stlh lamaaaaa gga kontak , ak d sms vi-chan !!!!
snangnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ~
tp .... da 1 hal yg bkn dhara agk down ..
YUE kayany sneng bgdd abz knal ma vi-chan. dy bhkan "mendaftarkan diri" jd shbtny vi-chan??
ap ini yg namany cmburu ?????
mgkn mank bner ,, w ngidap 'sister-complex'... T__T
wktu kaka nikah jga rasany kaya gini. rasany sesak..!!
gga rela !
gga rela !!
gga rela !!!!
rasany gga rela klo vi-chan diambil !!!
dhara kn gga cma ngidap 'sister-complex',, tp jga phobia 'ditinggalkan'...!!
klo da orng yg dhara sayaaaangg bgdd diambil/prgi ninggalin dhara, pzt dhara lgsng drop. tiba-tiba sesak napas, dadany trasa skiid, pusing", pokony menderita deh !!
tapi . . .

yaayyy !!

shakespeare is the best !!
h e h e h e
romeo and juliet is a genius !!!
but...
his other works amazing too !!
h o h o h o .
call me nerd, but this is me !!
and i'm proud becoming his fan !! hehehehe..

if you weren't there for me....

"someone just for me"

will I find it?
"someone just for me" ...
who will love me as me...
and him as himself...
who'll accept me, from the way I am. accept me because I am myself...
will I find, the person who worth to loved?
I hate being waiting...
but I even hater to suffer because of this...
I'm here... don't you notice me? even once?
I don't know, do I love you, or not...
if we like someone, doesn't mean we must always stayed by them side...
if we love them, we must do anything to make them happy. and if it means to let them go, do it...
though little by litte, I'd understand the meaning of "LOVE", someone like "ME", can't get LOVE...
but I'll waiting...
for "someone just for me"..
who will warm my heart...
for now, and forever ....

me

I am me, and I enjoyed it ...
You don't have any rights to judge me .
Your opinion doesn't needed .
Whatever you say about me, it's not me .
Because the only one who understand me is me ...

fufufufufufu..

deadhyuenith mkin hri mkin gawat..
hmpir tiap hri slalu ad yg brntem.
knp msi ngotot brtahan c klo dh gga thn ??
aneh bgdd ???????
tp emng syngg ia, klo tba" smuany berakhir ...





btw, w bru tw klo w trkenal bgdd d skula" lain. fufu ...
tp dlm arti negatif !!!

w dknal sbg :
1. jablay
2. cewe murahan
3. tukang rusak hubungan orang
4. cewe yg trlalu brharap ma mantanny
5. dll.

ahhh, bullshit ~
emng mreka tw w kaya gmn ???
tp bisa"y mrka ngeadd w d friendster cma bwt nitip comment sampah ... !!!
whatever ...
jngn remehin w deh !!
nantang w, lo mati !!!!!!

FUCK OFF, BASTARDS !!!!!

_for BITCH QUEEN from 48 JHS_

hmmmmmmmmmm .................................

best composer ever !!!!!!!!
YUKI KAJIURA !!!!!!
sumpah, lagu-lagunya keren-keren smua!! bagusssshh dheeeee !!
h e h e h e .
eh, bkan brarti w gga setia lho ma Olivia! cma lg ska jja dngerin lagu-lagunya Yuki Kajiura. palagi bahasanya tu (=kajiuran), yg dpke dlm lagu-laguny, unik-unik bgtt !!
h o h o h o .

btw, kmbali k dunia nyata (hha) ..
kayany w djadiin barang truhan nie !!
tp untungny tu cowo w tolak. hohohoho..
mski cma suka, dhara gga akn ninggalin cowo yg disukain cuma gara-gara dtmbak ma cowo lain!!
emng sih, klo nunggui dia bkal lamaaaaaaaaa, tp dhara gga mau nyerah gtu jja.
mski da gosip gga enak klo dia pnya cewe (klz 9 pula!) ... T__T
gpp lhaaaaaaaaa ~
semangattt !!

p.s.
nilai ulangan mtk : 42 !!!!!!!!
hiks...
nilai ulangan pkn : 90 !!!!!!!!
YAY !!!! XD

deadly in love with OLIVIA LUFKIN !!!

she's beautiful like a doll, she have such a beautiful voice too !!
oohh, i love her !! and her songs is very nice !!!
especially A LITTLE PAIN and WINTER SLEEP !!
OLIVIA LUFKIN, I LOVE U !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

ubhuuuuuuuuuu ~ =.=

KALAH !!
snevar 2 klh di baitul maal!
tp d yuppentek, brhsil jd juara dance !!!
jd bingung, msti sneng pa sdih?
sneng jja deh! kalah kn bkn brarti dunia kiamat?
h o h o h o .

dhara akhir" ni sibuuukk ngurusin friendster !!
bingung! friendster kbnyakan !! slh w sndiri ia? hehehe.

btw, dnger" c TEU nak klz 8 ska ma w? tp w dh trlnjur ska ma AYA...
tp klo mo nungguin AYA, bkal btuh wktu brtaon" !!!
iikh, jd binguuung ~
kta tmend" c ma TEU jja !!
tpiiiii ~ ????????????????????????????????????

too fast, yet too slow...

tgl 28 feb, gw lomba di baitul maal. jd wakil sklh, utk speech contest.
detik demi detik, menit demi menit...
hari-hari terasa begitu cepat bwt gw...

tp di sisi lain, ad hal lain yg trz mengganggu pkrn gw .

menungguny, trasa spt 100 th...

tp mlwati hari-hari pnuh pnderitaan dlm konflik persahabatan dan keluarga... trasa bgtu cepat .

never ending...

niat gw kluar dri deadhyuenith msi blm hlg...
smkn srg gw brng" mrka, smkn gw mrasa jauh dr mreka..

it's better for me to quit now, before it's too late.
but, why are they selfishly didn't allow me to quit??

pas msi trmasuk, gga dipeduliin. pas mau kluar, bru ditahan".

ap genk itu yg menjadikan kita sahabat?
bknny shabat yg mmbuat genk itu????????????????

tiap manusia itu egois, trmasuk gw sndiri...
tp keegoisan itu shruzny jga pnya bts...

Are You My True Friend ??

Create your own Friend Test here

horeeeeeeee !!

misunderstanding is over !!
zenith dh gga mrh lg sma mama dhara !
snangnyaaa ~
td jga ktm ma kaka hany n kaka" jowp !
tp niat dhara kluar dari deadhyuenith msi blm surut !
kaka" jowp mlh ngancem, klo dhara kluar nti pada mrh ma dhara !
gmn dunkk ... ?? T__T
btw, kaya'y bner dhe c AYA ska ma sohib dhara. tp trnyata bkn kiki, mlh dyah?
mungkin c !
h o h o h o .

too tired ....

udh gga tahan lg.
akhirnya, gue mutusin untuk kluar dari deadhyuenith .
gue cape. maaf ya...
gue keluar bkn karna gue benci ma deadhyuenith kok . tp krna gue sayang ma deadhyuenith ...

n buat satu masalah lg ,,
mutia saputri ,,
please deh ...
emangnya gue salah apa sih ma lo?? knp sih lo dendam bgt ma gue??
gue udh brusaha menjauh dari kehidupan lo n dia. karena gue sndiri udh jijik bgt sama kalian!!!
tp knp lo mlh brusaha narik gue lg?!
please, gue udh cape...
jangan ganggu gue lagi .
apa yg lo lakuin dlu, udh ckp bkn kacau hidup gue.
gue gga mau digituin lagi ma lo !!!!!!!!!
so please, stay away from me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

labyrinth

lagi-lagi...
udah gga tahan deh ..
knp sih pas gue baru mulai sneng, smuanya lgsg ancur berantakan??
apa gue emank gga blh nerima kebahagiaan??
gue cape .
cape .
cape .
hari-hari yang sama .
perasaan cemas dan kesepian...
merasa gga pantes hidup.
gue cape, hidup kayak gini terus. tp gue gga blh nyerah.
gue masih harus terus hidup .............. !!
gue harus bertahan, untuk hidup di dunia fana ini ........
tp, sampe kapan ???
sampe kpn gue bisa bertahan ????????
cape .
hidup gue terasa nemuin labirin, yg kemana pun arahnya selalu keliatan sama ... !!

just for you ,, ASSHOLE !!!!

this is for that BITCH !!!!

AARRGGHHH !!!!!!!

GILA !!!!
ANJROTT BGDD THU CEWE !!!!!!!
BERANI"NYA PAKE NAMA SAHABAT GUE N KAKANYA BUAT NYEBUTIN PEKERJAANNYA !!!!!!!
NGACA SANA !!!!!
YOU ARE THE BITCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!
MUKA KEA TAE KUCING GT JJA BANGGA !! COWO MUKA EMBER DISAYANG !!?? SAMA" GGA LAKU DI PASARAN, MBA !!?????
SHIT ,,
FUCK OFF !!!
MAJOR BITCH !!!!!!!
THE QUEEN OF BITCH COMMUNITY !!!!!!!!!!!

so happy ~ !!!! XD

hr ne kaya' hr trbaik gue, stlh brminggu-minggu mengalami kesialan !! hehehe .
senangnyaaaaa ~
hari ini, gue dapet kaka angkat, ka hani, anggota jowpaz jgaaa !!
dah gtu, gue dpt info ttg PUTRI lbh byk lg dr Vioni yg blg dh knal ma dy ???
and ...
gue bakal ngedate ma DIA !!!??
DIA !!!
DIA !!!
DIA !!!
DIA MAU NGEDATE MA GUE !!!!
tp yg bkn sedih, gue gga yakin dia beneran pengen jalan ma gue ... !!! T__T
lgian, gue cuma pengen double date buat ngadepin Ezar-Putri kok !!!

hahahaha ..

ohohohoho ..

gyahahahahaha ...

mwahahahahahaha ...

STREZ !!!!!!

GILA tw gga !?
gga heran lama-lama gue jadi STREZ !!!
knp gue truz yg hrus ngehadepin ni semua !?!
CAPE . CAPE . CAPE .
knp gue truz yg jadi sasaran ?!!?
hih ... !!
JUST A COMPLETE BULLSHIT .
tapi, demi nyokap gue, sekarang gue berusaha jadi "anak baik-baik" yang selalu nurut !!!
meski kebebasan dan kebahagian gue kerebut ???
meski pikiran gue jadi terbebani ???
meski hati gue jadi tambah sakit ???
IYA .
pengen rasanya kabur dari rumah !!!
tapi sayangnya ... gue BOKE' .
hih...!!
gue iri banged deh ma kaka gue yang ngekos dkt kampusnya !!!!!
SIS, TAKE ME WITH YOU !!!!

sudden marriage !?

gilaaaaa !!
hari ne jelas-jelas gokiiiill abeeezzz !!!!
yg bner jja deh !? masa gue di "kawinin" ma dia?!
ditengah-tengah pelajaran PKn lge !!
yg jdi penghulunya....PM (Pak Makmur) !?
gyaaaaaaaaaaa !!!
tp yg bikin gue sedih...ternyata dia dah suka ma cewe lain!! yaitu sohib gue sendiri !!!
sediiihhh ~ !!!!!
ya gak pa-pa lahhh....
gue kan bisa cari cowo laen !!
ya gak ??????????????

JERKS and BITCH

suka ?
suka ??
suka ???
suka ????
emnk'y kliatan jlz iaph klo w suka ma dy ???
masa c ?????
w jja gk yakin klo w emnk ska ma dy ??
ih waw, ko w bisa ska lg c ma cowo !?
AHHH ... BULLSHIT .
w kn dah bertekad spaya gk jatuh cinta lge !!
hmph ...
COZ ALL BOYZ ARE JERKS !!!!
tp ... w tw, gk cm cowo yg kaya SHIT. cewe" kea MUTIA SAPUTRI juga BITCHY bgd khn? kea SHIT jga kn ???
wkekekekekekekeke ....
gileeee !!
w ngomong'y parah bgd pa ia? hehehe.

ugh .... !!

BETE .
di rumah kerjaan'y diomeliiiin truz !!
di sekolah kerjaan'y ditambah"in bebaaan truz !!
gmn gk strez !?

rain...rain...rain !!!

ok, kali ini, ak pke b.indo ajj ia...
musim ujaaaaaan !!!
NO ~ !!
sengsara bgd deh !!
mana ujhan, bechek, gk ad ojhek !!
hueeeeee ~ ><

typing, editing and uploading !!

uwaaahhh ~
typing, editing, after that...uploading...!!
but most of all, what i hate most it...EDITING !!!
hueeee !!
i'm tired...
but i can't just stopped.
i must continue !!!
i think .. ?
hehehe.

february means valentine !!

oups !!
almost forgot !!
today is a new month isn't it??
february !!
that means...
VALENTINE DAY !!!
hoeeee ~
i wonder...will i give someone choco? hehehe.
or maybe...i'll get one?? haha.

first fanfic!!

YAAAYY ~
YAAAYY ~
i'm writing a fanfic (anime fic) in FanFiction.net.
even though i just wrote it, there's already 3 reviews!
so happy ~ ^o^
but still, i'll have to work harder. coz my grammar and tense are totally MESS UP .
(and i know, ALL OF YOU who seen my blog realize THAT)
yosh ,, ganbaro !!

me !! with my friend and sis !!

tired ~ !!

ugh ...
sooo tired !!
maybe i really shouldn't go to the bazaar after all !! ><
but, i want to come !!
so...
well,, at least i can met my dear friends again !! that's make me soo happy !! ^o^

haha ..

LIFE is SUCK ,,
FUCK with LOVE ,,
SADNESS is only a BULLSHIT ,,
but i can't hold my SHIT loneliness .
now ,, i lived in this DAMNED BOREDOM ...

boredom

huh .
so bored. everyday is the same. nothin change.
so boring ....
when this boredom gonna over ???
but... i don't want it to be over so soon, though.
haha, i'm really selfish, huh?
fake smiles, fake words, everything of mine is just fake. but, why people still want to be with me??? even though they already know the truth ??????

sweet friendship

friendship is everything ...

my friend is IN LOVE

love ...
again. another topics from ME about LOVE .
but this time, it's not about me.
my dear best friend has fallen in love with a guy in our school.
she's totally in love with him. so, me and the rest of the gank can't do anything.
she wanted me to help her with her romance (?). but...what can i do??? i even don't know the guy !!
ugh ~
why love is soo complicated ???
not just for me, huh?
HUUUFFFTT .

O.M.G !!!!

huweeeee !!!
what's with junior high life ?!
there's soooo many homeworks that i even can't understand !!!!!
i'm soooo tired !!
hix hix hix ...

two sides of princess

add me !!!!

Yahoo! (YM) , Friendster , Facebook , YouTube , Google , etc :
dhara.cintya@yahoo.com

love ?

looks like i'm in love now. haha. but i'm not too sure yet. coz i don't really feel that way to him.
ugh ... i don't know.
do i like him? or don't i??
when i looked at him, my face is blushing. and my heart is beating faster. but... i don't know !!!
right now, i'm still feel very very very scared of "love".
i still afraid to trust mens..
maybe ...
my time for love not yet arrived.
just maybe !!!

You are the only one I desire

what the ... ?!

ukh ...
those lies of mine just revealed. so sad. my friends mad at me. no wonder.
well, it IS my own fault. so... i guess it's ok.
huh .
why am i so dum ?!
trying to live, but not for love.
hate love, but wanted to beloved.
am i stupid or what ?!?
and also ...
i think i becoming more 'rough' these days. saying those things like F**K or S**T. now, those words is like an ordinary words for me.
aaahhh !!!
dunno. i'm too tired, too take care soo many thing by myself . in the short time too.
i just wanna freedom !!! i just wanna live for myself !! not for others !!!!!!
but ... isn't that to selfish ????
and i'm ended up need other people too ......

kobato hanato by clamp

exhausted ... !!!

i'm feelin not very well this lately . but somehow, i'm in a really good mood.
but i feel sad too. since my mom going out for works in her birthday. my poor mom ... ;(

anyway ,, how's everyone ???? ^^
hope u all fine .

i know my blog is not interesting at all. =.= so sad huh?
but i've got more stressed when i saw new chapters from two manga online i used to read is all blurry !! so disappoint and sad !!! ><

hmm...
i've created new account (for myself) in friendster. so i have 3 acc now! haha.
facebook? uhm ,, i do have one, but i still don't know how to use it!!
hyaa ~ !!
so embarassing !! X(

btw ,, i was thinking for using indonesian language for my blog. since i'm an indonesian. hehe. well, english is fine by me. and it help me learn more about it when i used it. but i still feel a lot more comfort using indonesian language. hoho.

well then ,, see u next time !! prepare for my indonesian language ! hehehe.

where is my true love??

hi there,
today just a normal day ,,
i came to my friend's house to do our homework together. nothing special about it.

right now, i'm thinking about a destined couple. you know, like a true love.
i was wondering, where is my true love??
i think, if there's two of us, then the suffer is going to split in two too. though i know, the trouble will be double as well...

hope that is true . . .

only the two of us

cute devil

if we're together, then everything is okay...

dark forest girls

the question of lifes

facing the truth, my trust was gone..
with those tears, i lost myself in the dark...

past cannot be changed, but the future can. my past is something that i never wanted.
but, right now i'm still living in this small world. say good bye to the past, and step forward to the future..
will i able to do so?

we're all born to live, but what exactly the reason for living??

nice to meet you all

hello there, welcome to my blog. my name is dhara. shera is my sisters' name. shena, dhara and kheshia.
i'm just an ordinary girl, who loves anime-manga but bored to live. many things happens to me, even though i'm still very young ^^. because of those "things", i closed my heart. that's why i chose "heartless" for this blog's title.
but no worries, maybe i'm heartless, but that doesn't mean i'm a loveless. i still loves my family and friends.

LOVE me, then your very welcome here!
HATE me, go away and never come back!!

I am who I am. maybe you think I'm abnormal. but this is ME. your oppinion doesn't NEEDED..